somehow i still miss him a lot a lot

why is it so.

what should i do or settle

anyway he wore the charm braclet again.

he was right.
the song does make me remind of everything and him esp.
but there is nothing to be done.
and somehow, its an answer that goes – I dont know.

but whatever it is, I heck and told him the truth.
i know there is nothing that will come from it
but I dont want to hide
i have been hiding behind this facade, this mask that sometimes i felt that delusion is cheating on oneself personality and feeling
its really not easy to get through this but im still hanging on
and i really dont know why
im trying to get on and not think of anything cos there are a lot of things that i need to settle and also cos theres really no way out since we are doing nothing abt our current state.
is curiosity really the factor that prompted the qn?
i guess so.